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It begins again…interviews.

To start, I already wrote this post once and then had a ton of things go wrong and It didn’t save a draft or anything which made me really mad…just saying. So this post may suck because it’s half assed of the previous one.

Anyways. I have started to look for jobs again, as once again me and P are moving. But this time we are moving home which I am happy about. Now I can see all my family and friends without having to drive two hours first. Marvelous, I know.

So I just began my search and have been applying to a ton of jobs. I already landed two job interviews which feels like a good start.

Ever since my “bad interview” in Ottawa I have been going in being myself and not stressing. I want people to want me because I’m a good designer and a good person. Sometimes when I see job posting they ask for your favorite blog or brands - I feel like if your answers aren’t what they are expecting you have already lost your chance. Even though that doesn’t really say much about you as a person or possibly a designer. I know they want you to be up to date or current, but maybe you have your own way of keeping up. That’s just how I feel though.

Well I went to the interview and they greeted me kindly, we went into a room and began to talk. The job posting was looking for a designer an customer service individual. I am not a customer service person but I figured, why not? Well it seemed like they were looking for a person to do more then just those two things - and at a unreasonable price if you ask me. Anyways, I began to show my portfolio, I start it with a piece that lots have people told me they love, and thankfully it’s my favorite too. I hand it to her (its a book), I mention its a school piece and she stops before she even opens it and asks of I have any work I have done for “real people”…really!? I mean give me a chance! “Yes I have done work outside of school and I will get to that if you would just be so kind to let me continue pleaseandthankyoulady”. Well I didn’t say that but, you know, something like that I’m sure.

After that, I seemed to speed through my portfolio as they had no questions and showed no interest, really in any of it. I felt that my work wasn’t being appreciated and that was hard. I have put lots of hard work into each of those projects, like I’m sure many designers have, and I felt like I wanted a bit more feedback. But you can’t always get what you want right?

Well the rest of the interview went well and both the people I met were nice, and I’m sure they will find someone who wants that job and will love it. I don’t particularly believe it’s the one for me though.

To all the designer out there my advice to you is, don’t sell yourself short. You are worth more then they might think. You went to school for this and you know what your capable of. Stand up for what you have created and don’t let people tell you it’s not good enough. Everyone might not like what you do but you will find someone who will. And they will appreciate you and value you as their employee. Find a job you love, one that you want to brag to your friend and random people about. I know I will find that and I hope all designers do. Believe in yourself an your work and nothing can hold you back.

This is just my take on things. Take and leave what you’d like from it.

- Stay Golden

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One Year

Wow, I can’t believe how much I have let this slide. I have got so wrapped up in life the last little while I barley remember to do things I enjoy. (I’m pretty sure I said this in my last blog :P)

It has almost been the one year mark that I have lived in Ottawa and we will soon be moving again. I can’t believe how much has happened in the last year. I was sad to be moving here at the start and now I am sad to be going. I feel that I have learned a lot - with so many changes happening in such a short time how can you not? 

I moved here after school to stay with a person that I love. It seemed hard at first, all we had was each other. I was use to so many people to take advice from or to lean on when I needed help. But as time went on you realize that sometimes that all you need. And if you have no one - you always have yourself to get you on the right path. I learned to compromise and know when there is something worth fighting for.

Don’t fight over those small things, they may seem like a big deal at the time, but why waste the little time you have with someone fighting over dirty dishes? There’s bigger problems in the world then dirty dishes. 

I went for my goal to work at a graphic company and after much trial, error and a few kicks in the ass I got there. I learned to push myself and just be who I am - don’t try to be this person that they are hoping you will be. 

We got our dog and he taught me so many times how to be patient. VERY patient. He’s been a handful but he helps me to not be selfish with my time. I’ve grown to love the walks and not be lazy…well most of the time. Enjoy whats around you! Especially since global warming is just fucking it up.

I have realized how important your friends are. Keep the ones close who care for you as much as you care for them. Is there a point to having 20 friends that are never there for you? I’d rather have 3 that are always are. 

I have been starting to think how sad it will be to leave this apartment. As it gets closer to june I have thought how we will never be here again, in this apartment or in our lives. It’s our first place we have had together, though it will not be the last, we can never come back to where we are. 

But its on to new memories and new places. I don’t know where life will take me in the years to come, but I am happy with where it has taken me so far. Learn from all that you do in life. It all has purpose and meaning. And read more. Or at least take time away from your electronics, we take to many things for granted. 

Stay Golden xo 

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The Design World: Freelance

I realized that I stopped writing about my experiences in the design world and the challenges I’ve faced. I guess I got so busy trying to make it and started doing way to many things at once, I lost track.

I have been done for almost a year, and in some ways it feels longer then that. I started out doing freelance work while I looked for graphic jobs in the city. It started off slow and I didn’t get many responses, but after a bit it started to pick up. I found myself having three potential jobs at once. But usually only one job would follow through, IF that. I found it hard to not get discouraged and a lot of the time I felt I chose the wrong career path. There are so many other designers…better designers. And those little bastards were going to take away my jobs…but that the reality of it.

There are always going to be people who are better and more experienced. But if you love what you do, your time will come that your the stronger designer and you’ll get that job you’ve been hoping for. Everyone has a different style - embrace yours.

When times were slow I still wanted to work on building my portfolio, so I started to write to charities/non for profit organizations and see if they needed assistance with any designs. I love to help when I can. It’s giving something great to them and it’s helping me expand and grow as a designer. Yeah, you probably wont make any money off of it, but who cares. It doesn’t hurt to do it once and a while. 

But be sure when working as a new designer/for free, to not let people take advantage of you. They will try. Stand your ground and learn from mistakes as you go. You’ll probably get screwed over once or twice…maybe even more times, but just take that to your next job and be more prepared. Don’t rely on freelance if you just start out, I mean, maybe I really do just suck or everyone hates me, but you won’t have a steady paycheck. Continue to better yourself, design and practice - you’ll be more confident in yourself and your work. Just don’t be cocky - everyone hates that kind of designer. 

While all this was going on I continued to look for jobs in the Ottawa area. I also started to write to design companies and see if the head designers or owners were willing to take the time to meet with me and give me a critique on my work. I think this is a great thing to do because everyone is going to have a different view on you and your work. This can help you make a portfolio that is universal and appealing to many people. They will give you advice - take what you want from it. Try to have an open mind! Cause if you don’t there is no point to doing this if your stuck in your ways. Most people are trying and willing to help - they were once in your shoes too. 

This is all in my experience. I’m not trying to say that this is the exact way to go about finding a job or what will happen. School gives you a different perception of what you are going into and I think it can help to see what others have went through.

Overall I did enjoy freelance because you have so much freedom. I think it’s a great way to warm up to the world and see what people want. It makes you more independent and gives you a chance to expand in your portfolio with things other then fake logos and tea packages. In the end just try to enjoy what you do. You never want it to turn into something you hate - and sometimes people can make that hard. Just roll with it all and you”ll get where you want to be. 

-Stay Golden!

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I feel like I have no time for myself and to do what I like. I guess I just gotta make time.
But why does making time feel like such a big task? Am I really THAT lazy?
I had a moment the other day where I just sat and thought how life isn’t worth wasting and how I should just stop thinking so much - about what I do or what I say. Or to push myself and really do the things I want to do - screw those people who think I can’t do it or think what I’m saying is dumb.  But it’s like the next day I wake up and it’s back to worrying about the stupid pointless things. I love to design, create and have fun…but I feel like there is something just blocking me to doing them. I mean I get I’m busy with a new job and the dog and all that - but work shouldn’t stop us from doing what we love. I keep saying i’ll get to it. But how long will that be? 
Anyone else feel like their life is on stand by?

I feel like I have no time for myself and to do what I like. I guess I just gotta make time.

But why does making time feel like such a big task? Am I really THAT lazy?

I had a moment the other day where I just sat and thought how life isn’t worth wasting and how I should just stop thinking so much - about what I do or what I say. Or to push myself and really do the things I want to do - screw those people who think I can’t do it or think what I’m saying is dumb.  But it’s like the next day I wake up and it’s back to worrying about the stupid pointless things. I love to design, create and have fun…but I feel like there is something just blocking me to doing them. I mean I get I’m busy with a new job and the dog and all that - but work shouldn’t stop us from doing what we love. I keep saying i’ll get to it. But how long will that be? 

Anyone else feel like their life is on stand by?

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The Holidays

I have been so behind on my blogging! I’m going to try to make posts when I am on my lunch break and don’t have an overload of work to do. I feel like I have been so busy lately. I’m usually already done my Christmas shopping and this year I just started about two days ago. It’s really stressing me out. I don’t like malls when everyone is crazy.

I did start something new and exciting - my job at Cayenne Creative! It’s been lots of fun so far and now I am in my second week. I’m learning a lot and it’s fun to be putting my mind to work - useful work. Before I got the job I was working on a illustration of Katy Perry and I was so excited to post it on here - now I will have to wait till the next time I have a break to work on it. Which I have no idea when that will be.

Every morning I have to leave extra early so that I have time to take Smoke to doggy daycare. He’s had a lot of difficulty being left alone. He either destroys everything or becomes ill. It’s hard and I feel bad for him - and P who now has to deal with all the stuff he ruined. Other then that hes a great dog. Hes so smart and is now in the dog lessons at Pet Smart. He does really well! We think is still growing…last night P picked him up and Smokes head looked HUGE! It was really cute. I’ll have to take a picture of him to share. 

Tonight I’m going to go shopping and order a few things…LIKE A PAIR OF NEW GLASSES! I’m so excited to get them! They are so cute and their going to be red - which will be perfect for the holidays. I hope I can get them in time! Yay!

Speaking of the holidays, I can’t wait for Christmas and New Years! It’s going to be a blast to see all my friends and family. I’m really starting to miss everyone. At least I get the week off to just relax and visit. I’m also debating if I should go and get a tattoo this week…why not? 

Anyways, I hope everyone else is more prepared then I am for the holidays! Have fun with friends and family and never waste those moments you have with loved ones. Live it up! Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year! ♥  

- Stay Golden

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It’s been a long time.

I feel like I haven’t wrote on here in so long! My life has been so crazy for the last little while. My sister is moving and I just moved not to long ago. I’ve been spending as much time with my family as possible. You don’t realize how much you need them and miss them until things take a turn in your life.

For a while I was feeling really unmotivated and wasn’t even looking at all the design sites I go on. But I am back and I have some really big ideas in mind. It may take a while before they show up on here, but they will. I may need other peoples opinions and it would be great to get responses whent that happens. I love to here from other design students and anyone else who wants to share their thoughts. 

Anyways, heres to hoping that I can get back to posting on here more then I have been, and be back to sharing my work and ideas with others. So lets all go take a shot and enjoy the rest of the night!

Cheers to that!

-Stay Golden